'Sunday'- Comes with its own attitude. At times i feel that wkdays are better than sundays cos at least u do not expect them to be stress free !! Where as sundays have stopped livin up to their carefree reputation. I am supposed to get over all the work of my life on sundays , or so it seems. Well enough about that, I guess my depressin attitude thats borderin on a lil melodrama owes its origin to the fact that i am not yet attuned to the catastrophic turn of events in my previously bearable life..................... I had just started to get out of my hibernation , I had just managed to raise my eyes to look at the blue beyond.......when heaven threw me a chance to fall in love again....... and i grabbed it with both my hands ..those few days were immensely gratifyin. I was plucked from the depths of my despair and raised to the pinnacle of ecstasy......................only to be dropped deeper. For the life of me I can not figure out as to what happened. Everythin happened so fast and so unexpectedly that i am still standin here frozen ,watchin the rest of the world go by....................I havent even reached the 'why me' stage yet.....................I am presently beyond understandin, devoid of all comprehension, though outwardly i am still functinin as before but my insides are threatenin to flash out the warnin signals.....................


'A few questions that I need to know,
How could u ever hurt me so,
I need to know what I have done wrong,
And how long its been goin on,
Was it that I never paid enough attention,
Or did I not give enough affection?
you can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone,
you can write it in a letter,
either way I have to know.
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
I am goin out of my mind .
All the answers to my questions i have to find.
My head is spinning and I am in a daze,
I feel isolated , dont wanna communicate,
I'll take a shower, I'll scour,
I'll run,find peace of mind.
Things and vocabulary runs right through me.
The alphabet runs from A to Z .
Conversations, hesitations in my mind,
You got my conscience asking questions that I cant find.
I am not crazy, I am sure I aint done nothing wrong,
but the way i am feeling,it just dont feel right.'
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